I want to be that girlfriend that's going to shake her head at you when you scream so loud after your favorite player shoots a basket. I know you're excited, and I probably scream just as loud when I see my celebrity crush, but to see you getting so excited over something like that, I think it's cute.

I want to be that girlfriend that's going to sit next to you in a concert, occassionally pinching your beer belly (that I, in all my power, will help remove during the time we are together), telling you to quit dozing off and listen to the magic that is Jason Mraz <3

I want to be that girlfriend that stays at home while you go party with your friends. You'd tell me that I shouldn't go since it's a boy's night out, but you'll call me in the middle of the night anyway, just to tell me that you love me. I want you to be that boyfriend.

I want to be that girlfriend who's all tough and confident whenever I'm with you, but cower in a corner when I finally have to meet your parents. We will get to that stage and when we do, I want you to stay in another room. I need to make them love me without you helping me out. Stay in a room, go cook dinner, do anything. Just don't watch me try to win your family's hearts with my charm. Let me (try to) make them lulz by myself.

I want to be that girlfriend who's going to tell you to stop smoking.. But then again, why would you be my boyfriend if you were smoking in the first place? You must be really hot or I'm just really in this for your money. I love you(?). PS. This is a joke.

I want to be that girlfriend that you'd be proud of, even if your friends tease you about being whipped. What's wrong with being in love?

I want to be that girlfriend that will make you want to believe in love again. That will give you butterflies and make you feel like a little school girl. I want to change your bitter thoughts about love, that is, if you even have any thoughts regarding that matter, and make you realize that, there are still people in this world worth fighting for. Stop being such a boy!

Aaaah! So many things to be.
So little time. I hope you're gonna like that.

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Got this idea from DarkMocca. I think it's fun, since I was planning to write something related to it anyway. And since a lot of people I know read this, I'll.. Play with some names. Haha.

Kevin Troy
First crush
We rode the same bus going to school
He had the nicest eyes, always smiling too

Kevin Ares
Hehe. This was around the time where I realized I was growing up
He was really cool. Nothing really happened though
It was more of a crush thing than anything. He was just really cool

Kevin Acuna
Everybody had a crush on him
Me and my bestfriend both liked him. Haha.

Michael
First unofficial boyfriend
I don't want to make excuses, but it sorta happened without me knowing anything
Peer pressure

A - Usher
First love
All the girls loved him. So did some guys too.. Haha
Dancer, basketball player, hella chill!
It.. ended on a sour note
All the girls hated me cos he liked me and I liked him,
so being the naive highschool girl that I am,
when they asked "Do you love him?! Do you like him!?"
I'd always say no, even if I really did like him

"Palaka"
We met at prom. Started out as friends
Then it was pretty obvious there was something more to that
Long distance. Couldn't work
I really liked him. But I realized it would never have worked out now

K
This was.. real :)
I can't even start how I actually feel for this guy
3 years
We broke up, but recently, started talking again
I've always thought of how it would be if we started going out again..

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I think I've been drinking too much coffee. I've been so paranoid, fidgety and always so nervous about the smallest things. It's seriously the coffee. I have to cut down on it if I want to go back to being.. not .. like this. I spent over P 3,000 a month on coffee ever since July this year. Where the hell did I get that much money?! Man. No wonder I never had enough money as soon as I got back home. Could you blame me though? The ambience was just so relaxing in Starbucks. It was so relaxing. Add to the fact that I saw most of my friends in there too. Ah. I feel like I'm screaming while reading this in my head.

This morning, I got a text from a friend saying that she was upset and that she had been crying. Worried, I came to school early to ask what was wrong and she told me everything. Basically, she was blamed for something she didn't do. Now, she's 'that girl who stole that camera' to all her dormmates. People are doubting her. I've known her for two years and I know she wouldn't have done the thing that she's accused of. So why is she crying and fretting over this? I understand what she's going through.

1. The fact that the people she thought were her friends actually even let a cloud of doubt loom over their assumptions.. To actually know that they actually THOUGHT about it, that she'd actually steal something? That hurts. That sucks.
2. Nobody deserves to be treated this way, especially for something that they didn't do. Besides the fact that I'm upset this is happening (since she is my friend, and I don't like her this way.. It sucks seeing her this way), I am angry. Did the culprit think about how she'd feel if he knew that she was being blamed for the stupid shit that he did? Oh man. If I found out who stole that thing.. I'd .. I'd
3. I don't like doubting other people, or making assumptions that they might have something to do with it, but.. I can't hold it in. It's too obvious. I think it's him.

Anyway, enough about that. I've been doing really bad in my zoology subjects, and I have a make up exam for it on Friday. I have to do well. Or else I'm screwed. It feels like I wasted 1 semester in college. The only thing I did was get paranoid, do things that made me so busy but were still pointless, and the like. 2nd semester should be fun.